Release Year: 2015
Studio: CockyBoys.com
Cast: Levi Karter, Levi Michaels, Liam Riley, Tayte Hanson
Genres: Anal Sex, Blowjob, Cumshots, Hairy, Kissing, Masturbation, Muscles, Tattoos.

My "gay" education happened at the base of a lengthy wooden bar, in the Bourbon Pub, the iconic homo bar in New Orleans, perfectly situated on the corner of Bourbon Street and Saint Ann. While sipping a gin and tonic, it was the ideal spot to see the rows of television screens playing the movie scenes of the day -- Liza, RuPaul, Boy George, and Right Said Fred's "I'm Too Sexy" (YIKES! ROTFL -- but one night, I saw smth that forever changed me.

There was a guy who looked like smth out of a Baroque space-age clip singing opera. It was Claus Nomi, singing "The Cold Song", from Purcell's "King Arthur." I had not at any time seen everything like it. I was transfixed, embarrassed, jealous, joyful, and sad all at one time. I wanted to costume like him. Sing like him. Command attention like him. At that pont of time, I wanted to be HIM. Me, a hunting, fishing, conservative white guy, felt the need to transform and become greater amount than what I was at that pont of time.

After that night, I read and devoured anything I could about Claus -- and this is previous to there was the Internet. I would sit in the Tulane Library and look up magazines and newspapers to read as much as I could about homosexual punk rockers, David Bowie, Lou Reed, Andy Warhol, and all the goings-on of NYC nightlife, absorbing it all and day dreaming about "what it would be like."

CUT TO: Finally making it to NYC and living in the town I one time solely dreamed about... and then came the reality check. Living and surviving in New York was not as fabulous and pretty as I day dreamed. In fact, I was met by the overwhelming sense of collective consciousness, everybody being powered by fear and survival.

And it is that same energy that filled this project. Fear and survival.

Many of u know that this project was born from a breakdown with Jett Black, smth that upset me highly at the time. But now as the hands of time ticked by and have passed, I've worked to understand my upset and anger and I now have a greater understanding and gratitude toward what happened. This project has been a blessing to me and many who were a part of making it. And I have come to understand and realize that Jett was doing what we all do each day -- trying to survive at a time when fear clouded his mind. Fear and survival -- it makes us one as well as the other weak and powerful.

As I was preparing to discharge The Actor, I went back to my original transformation inspiration, Claus Nomi, and watching on YouTube that performance I had seen 20 years in advance of. Tears streamed down my eyes as I reconnected to the same feeling I did so lengthy agone. But in that pont of time, I could do what I could not then -- Google and Wikipedia my inspirational. And then I read this...

"In the final several months of his life, Nomi changed his focus to operatic pieces; to fit, this guy adopted a Baroque era operatic outfit complete with full collar as his typical on-stage attire in this time frame. The collar helped cover the outbreaks of Kaposi's sarcoma forming on his neck, one of the numerous AIDS-related diseases Nomi developed toward the end of his life."

Fear and survival.

Like so many artists and creative beings, Nomi, facing , would not allow his failing body to restriction him. In fact, that guy transformed one time anew, poking the limitations of himself, creating smth so inspiring and marvelous. An inspiration one time another time, at a recent time when I'm able to fully understand and pay respect.

Today, I work with an outstanding group of people -- all from many walks of life and situations. Many of whom I love and work with have at one time faced struggles I can not imagine. I often question how they have survived.

Fear and survival.

And now, as I complete this creative tour, I am forever grateful to the 16 fantastic juvenile chaps who acted in those films, in working jointly, they all shared with me and allowed me to at times connect to the fear they often face, battle, and use to survive. It is in their tour that I have come to realize that how we face our fears is how we survive. Face your fears in the light of day and u can watch what's ahead. Face your fears in the darksome and u will watch no thing.

Thank u for allowing my indulgences and I love u all.

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